My eyes couldn't hold the tears anymore and they began to pour down my face. I was on the floor of my closet - hiding - while the kids were playing in their rooms. I sat there quietly, not knowing what to pray anymore.
"God, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I know you don't have time for all my issues when there is so much pain all over the world...but I can't do it by myself anymore. I can't handle it. I need....I need...."
My voice trailed off. I looked down at my Bible that I had randomly opened and, as my eyes focused on the page in front of me, I sat dumbfounded as I read, "For he shall deliver the needy when he crieth; the poor also, and him that hath no helper." (Psalm 72:13)
Having grown up in Church, I remember reciting the verse "Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you." I knew it was true that we could bring our cares to the Lord, going to Him at any time of the day or night, but somehow my mind had categorized my cares. Certainly God looks at some of my cares and rolls His eyes. My little hurts and worries are no match for the utter devastation all over the world. God must look down at me and shake His head at the mountains I make of molehills.
I've found that to be untrue.
You see, the enemy wants to paralyze us with doubt. He wants to convince us that we mustn't bring ALL our troubles to our God; that we mustn't bother Him by making ALL our requests known. If we dare to approach the throne at all, he would have us to approach it timidly and only with the concerns that even we believe to be impossible for God to fix. That's how our faith is slowly suffocated. That's how our cares become overwhelming. That's how our joy is stripped away.
I sat there in my closet staring at the verse in front of me. He shall deliver the needy....the beggar....the desperate one who is in want. That was me in that moment. He shall deliver him when he cries. And boy, was I crying! He will also deliver the poor....the afflicted....the depressed....the humble.
Even me, Lord? Even me??
In Matthew 5, Jesus "blessed" nine things. He blessed the poor in spirit, those who mourn, the meek, those who hunger and thirst after righteousness, the merciful, the pure in heart, the peacemakers, those who are persecuted for the sake of Christ, and those who are reviled.
Why would He BLESS the poor in spirit and those who mourn?
Why would Jesus say that we are fortunate and supremely blessed when we are in such a needy state? Neediness turns people off. Neediness overwhelms and it drains people - much of the time when they themselves don't have much to spare.
But God is not overwhelmed by us.
Let that sink in. He is not overwhelmed by us.
He calls us blessed when we are needy. Why? Because He alone can deliver. He calls us blessed when we are mourning and burdened down. Why? Because He alone can comfort and lighten our load. We are supremely fortunate when we realize that we have access to God and can come BOLDLY to His throne with every little thought, every little question, every little heartache, every little insecurity - everything - and He not only accepts our needy state, He INVITES it. He wants needy people because He wants us to understand our utter futility and His all-complete Sufficiency. He likes being God. And He is glorified when we run to Him with every care and trust Him with every situation we face. When we do that, our faith is built. And faith moves mountains. Faith destroys strongholds. Faith brings strength. And faith brings joy.
Be needy today. Be needy, not to people, but to Jesus so He can, in turn, meet your every need.
He loves needy people.